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I need help in the worst way. I have been suffering from a bad case of burn out. It is hard to describe how I feel right now, except to say just plain exhausted.

Everything is suffering in my life as a result. My thought processes are muddled and my head is just fuzzy. My body hurts, and I feel like I haven’t slept in months. I feel as if I am running an uphill race and the hill just keeps on getting bigger and bigger.

I know for a fact that my family does not understand this. And neither does my physician. My husband seems to think that this is all in my head.  I hope that perhaps someone reads this and can relate some suggestions to me to help my weary body feel like normal again.

So, it is once again time to finish off my nightly work and call it a day. Hope that you all have a wonderful day.

Life in my home has finally started to return to some state of normalcy. It has been a truly crazy month for me, and I am glad that it is almost over.

It feels as though I have been running some sort of sick, twisted marathon. A race in which I never seem to reach the finish line. And boy let me tell you I feel like it also. I seem to wake up more tired than I was when I went to bed.

And right now I feel as though I am living in a funny farm. My youngest children are using pot lids like cymbals, and playing like they are in a marching band. Marching up and down the hallways madly banging away at their cymbals. My husband is begging them to stop. My oldest child is laughing like a hyena at such foolishness going on. And the girls have headed off to bed to get away from the craziness. And here I sit in the middle of the madness, trying to find the words to describe the insanity. I am about to plug in my headphones, chase my children off to bed, tune out, and listen to some very relaxing music.

And yes my friends, this is NORMAL in my house. Cabin fever has officially set in, and spring is not coming quick enough. I can not wait until I can tell the kids to go play outside. It will be a wonderful day when I can  sit outside with a cup of coffee, and listen to my children laugh and giggle as they play in the yard. All I can say is “Hurry up and get here spring.”

It is yet another day in my crazy life.  I am still feeling a little down about my friends passing, but I am slowly finding joy again. Currently I am preparing for my work day tomorrow. And what a fun day it is going to be, I get to start working with a new employee.

We have a sort of mentoring  program on my job. All the new employees get assigned a training monitor for a minimum of three weeks. After the three weeks of training you have to complete a testing phase. And for the next three weeks it will be my job to ensure that this new employee gains all the skills necessary to complete the testing phase. And the best part is that I get graded if you will on their performance.

As much as a I hate to admit it, I actually enjoy working with the newbies. I find that it takes a very big sense of humor and a ton of patience, along with some tongue biting to get them through this phase of their job. But it is all worth it when in the end, someone says Thank You.

I just hope that I get someone with a sense of humor.

    I am struggling to find the words tonight to express my feelings. I lost a friend and co-worker today, and I am still in a state of disbelief.

It’s hard to describe how much my co-workers are like family. We spend long hours together everyday. And often find that we know more about each other than we do about our spouses or loved ones. The bonds that we share don’t end when we leave the job. And when Mark retired 14 months ago because of his illness, he was still a part of us. We continued to include him in our activities, and some people even took time out to take  him and his wife to lunch.

And now that he has passed, he continues to be a part of our family. We  each are individuals and grieve in our own way. But yet we remain as a family and shoulder our grief as such.  I know that when I return to work on Sunday, I will have people to laugh and cry with.

So, Rest In Peace My Friend. You may be gone but you are not forgotten.

    I am in a state of shock right now. I just opened my cellphone bill that is due April 1, and got the shock of my life. My bill for one month is $650 dollars. And 95 percent of it is courtesy of my teenage nieces. Talk about being in a state of shock. My jaw dropped when I saw how much I owed.

But I contacted my cell phone company and managed to get some excess charges removed. I also put up a block on my account that blocks the Internet. So no more talking to their friends on Facebook while they are not at home. And unfortunately no more sending or receiving messages with pictures. But that is life, I don’t have any sympathy for you.

Now I know that sounds cold, but I can’t apologize for speaking my mind. When they were given the phones, they were told that it was a privilege. And if they abused that privilege they could lose their phones. Now I am sure that they will have more than a few nasty words for me to mumble under their breath. But I don’t think you have any right to complain when you are not the one paying the bill. Or even contributing one red cent towards any bill in this house. When you have a job, and are paying your own bills, then and only then do you have the right to complain about anything. So, in the meantime mumble under your breath all you want to, it makes no difference to me.

So, just a word of caution to those parents considering giving their teenager a cellphone……..DON’T DO IT!!!! Say No, walk away, hell run away if you can. Just don’t give them a cellphone unless your prepared to pay a hefty bill for their foolishness.

A big Thank You to all my readers for my Birthday wishes. The day may have gotten off to a bad start, but it did have it’s fun moments.

Like for example, when I returned home from the library with my niece, I was greeted by a very large paint spill in my kitchen. Dark blue paint on my white tile floor. Courtesy of my 5 yr old and my 3 yr old. I had a ton of fun cleaning my floor on my hands and knees. Then a short time later, my husband spilled white paint on my living room rug. But once again, quick thinking and lots of wet towels saved me a big, huge stain of white paint on my rug.  What fun that was!!!

But the topper of my day was painting my bedroom until after 3 a.m. Then having to rearrange my room so I could go to sleep.  And believe me when I say that there is really nothing like trying to hold a paint brush steady when your tired. We still have a little more painting to get done, but we have to tackle some repairs to our bathroom before we can paint.What a nightmare that is going to be. I don’t even want to think about that. But that is truly a thrill to me. I love taking on home improvement jobs. I think it has to do with the feeling of pride in knowing that I completed the project.

So watch out world. Here I come with a hammer in one hand and a paint brush in the other. Trouble with a capital “T” and I mean business. No job too big and no job too small, I can tackle it all.  I hope to change many things in my home this year. And hopefully finally turn my home into my dream.

Wish me luck cause I am gonna need it. I hope you all are having a good week. And keep on smiling.

    Happy Birthday to me! That’s right today is my Birthday……and what a day it is. It is incredibly cold outside, my house is a certifiable disaster area, I am suffering with a lack of sleep, and I am disappointed.

That’s right I said disappointed. I was promised breakfast in bed by my wonderful hubby. But instead I got kicked out of bed to take our son to school and then go help my mother out. Now I normally don’t mind doing these things, but there really was no reason why he couldn’t get up and do them today.

So here I sit with my youngest niece and my daughter watching TV. There is food cooking on the stove, clothes in the washer, and it is looking more and more like a normal day in my house. The kids will be home from school in a few hours. And I will have even more work to get done.

Perhaps I will get lucky tonight, and be able to sneak out and go to the dollar movies. Or maybe even get to treat myself to an ice cream cone at Baskin Robbins. What ever I do, I am sure I will find a way to cheer myself up.  I mean what fun is it to go around all day pissed off at the world. And like I always say, ” Any day above ground is a good day. If I am alive and breathing, what excuse do you have for not being happy.”

I have found a really fascinating Google gadget. It is a virtual weight loss model. You can select a before model and a goal weight model. It is amazing to see how you would look at your goal weight.

My weight loss challenge seems to be going well so far. I am eating better than before. And I have started to see some changes in my physique already. My jeans are starting to get baggy on me and my clothes are starting to just fit better overall. And for the first time in years I was brave enough to pick up a tape measure and take my measurements.

My measurements were not all that bad.

Bust 42″         Waist 42″   and  Hips 48″

I must admit I am mystified as to how it is possible that my chest and my waist are the same.  But I suppose that will change as I lose more weight. Now as far as the scale is concerned, I am avoiding it. The last time I did one of these challenges I was obsessed with the scale. I weighed myself everytime I was anywhere near the scale. And I was devastated when I didn’t see changes in the numbers. So this time around I am more concerned with how my clothes are fitting me. Many of my weight loss mentors, have said that the way your clothes fit is a better indicator of your weight loss. And if that is the case I have lost a on of weight. And I feel like I am thinner also.

Now my exercise regime has been fun to say the least. I have found a new way to do squats. I throw my 5 yr old son on my back and listen to him giggle while I do my squats.  I enjoy hearing him giggle so much I always end up laughing also. And  I don’t think I would mind doing bench presses,  if I could get kisses from my babies at the same time.

I has been almost three weeks since the challenge started. Only five more to go.  I hope I can hold on that long. I can’t lie it has been rough because when I feel stressed I want to eat everything under the sun. But I have to remind myself that I have a goal.

Keep praying for me to be strong willed.